I don't feel like doing a lot of things these days. There's a few things I have to get done this week. I must get the garden cleaned out so I can plant things next month. I must finish painting the bar. I must mow down some tumble weeds. I must run all the errands I generally put off.
I must catch up on sleep. I must play with the dogs. I must finish books I have started. I must do this. I must do that.
I'm on spring break, which is quite blissful really. Everyone always asks where you're going for break and, to be honest, I've never gone anywhere for any spring break. You see, I didn't grow up in an area that had spring break. Most of Pennsylvania doesn't subscribe to it. So I never got into the thought of must go away for spring break.
Oh, I lied. I went to Pennsylvania to visit for spring break back in 2011. Scott knew that if he didn't send me out of the 49th state for a short period of time, I would lose my mind.
So, when I've been asked a multitude of times in the last month where-are-you-going-for-break?, I've just shrugged. Sometimes the best break is just that: a break. Time to regroup. Time to relax.
Anyway, I'm motivationally challenged at this point. I know Scott is too, but in a different way. We Skype a few times a week and I told him the other day that the only thing that motivates me is caffeine. The strong coffee I make in the morning and then the idea of an Americano on the way to school is the only thing that gets me out the door by 7am. And then I think, why is that my only motivation? Like, how bad are things, really, if coffeehouse espresso is the only thing I look forward to when I leave the house in the morning?
Concerning goals and forward progress, I'm kind of terrified to revisit that cleaning schedule goal, and I can assure you that the Bible-reading-thing has not been happening as much as it should.
If anything, the only area where I've not been slacking is working out. Now, I don't know if it would fit in with everyone's definition of such, but I joined The Balanced Life Sisterhood at the beginning of February, and I've made it a point to do 30-40 minutes of Pilates most days. I've also made it a point to get to the body sculpt class on Saturdays at the gym. Of course, with spring break, I'm able to get to kettleball and kick-boxing and hopefully that'll up my endorphins and who knows...maybe I'll start next week in a motivated fashion.
Is there something you're just really not motivated to do? Any secrets for powering through?
Sometimes I think we should start a support group. Maybe my problem is that I have SO much to do (or do I create it all?) that I don't know what to focus on...
